The Watermelon Pip

2011-10-14T06:00:00.000-07:00

oh, and your hair grows... a little.

Love's gone bad.

2010-10-13T05:21:00.000-07:00

And there's nothing I can do or say
that's gonna make you look my way.

It's all in the eyes.

2010-10-12T12:31:00.000-07:00

They'll never know and I'll never tell.

Grey

2010-10-11T13:32:00.001-07:00

I drove along the coast. It reminded me of you. Or maybe it reminded me of the memory of you. I can't tell the difference anymore.

Dreamland

2010-10-06T11:45:00.000-07:00

Can't wait to hang out with the daisies this weekend.

2010-09-20T01:23:00.000-07:00

Love is patient. Love is kind. Unfortunately, I'm neither.

Truth

2010-09-06T10:46:00.000-07:00

We all want to run away, but some of us are just slower than others.

The Plot

2010-09-01T01:28:00.000-07:00

The Plot has been lost
I'll never find it again
It's not scribbled on paper
or written in pen.

It's not in my head
or with my heart on my sleeve
It's gone running, gone walking
decided to leave.

The plot has been lost
It didn't leave me a note
Just some heartache, a headache
and a violin playing goat.

The plot has been lost
but I'm not sure i mind
because the plot that's been lost
is not mine to find.

2010-08-30T13:24:00.001-07:00

Coversations

2010-08-23T07:19:00.000-07:00

Words chase words as I get lost in your voice.

2010-08-22T13:15:00.000-07:00

Nothing ever makes sense on a sunday.

Cosmic

2010-08-18T11:52:00.000-07:00

When we're together I feel the planets align.

Words

2010-08-17T03:51:00.000-07:00

I think i miss you, but I don't really think it's you i miss.

Choices

2010-08-16T11:49:00.001-07:00

They can be rather confusing can't they.

Esmeralda the Fortune Teller

2010-08-15T05:29:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it's nice to pretend to be someone else.

Hello Again

2010-08-10T13:08:00.001-07:00

This holiday between shopping on Oxford St and beaching on the Italian Riviera I had a lot of thinking time to do (as one does). And I got to thinking about this blog and why I haven't posted since May 26. First I felt sad, then I felt guilty (we all know what a bore that can be) and then I came up with an excuse I thought was rather nice which I'll share with you: It got too personal. I think my dad tried to ask me if I was gay because of this (in all fairness it is a rather unfortunately placed comma), people thought I was sad because of this, i got called "quite intense" I'm pretty sure because of this. And I started to worry that everything I posted would be taken literally so I started to censor myself which, in turn, kind of killed my creativity. But now I'm back (uncensored). I hope you're glad. I am. And please, comment. But don't ask me what I mean or who I'm talking about, because often it's nothing or no one at all.

2010-05-12T02:50:00.001-07:00

I know it's sad,
but unfortunately it's true.
A lot of my wanting to wake up
has to do with seeing you.

Together we Slept

2010-04-30T01:38:00.000-07:00

Hand in Hand.
Heart in Heart.

The Fear

2010-04-21T01:54:00.000-07:00

Where are you?
I sit and wait.
Wait to see, to hear,
to touch, to feel.

I wait for bristles on cheeks
and hands on hips.

I wait for eyes meeting eyes
and flesh meeting fingertips.

I wait for a sound,
for a rush of air.

I wait to look up,
but you're still not there.

2010-04-21T01:53:00.000-07:00

The only thing i can offer you is passion.

When the cure becomes the cause

2010-04-07T13:28:00.000-07:00

you just have to let it go.

Cheers!

2010-03-25T11:35:00.000-07:00

Congrats to one of my favourite bloggers Paige on the launch of her book "A Million Miles from Normal". I am now going to stop blogging and go read it immediately.

If I had a bagel for a boyfriend...

2010-03-16T13:47:00.000-07:00

I want to paint...

2010-03-14T06:32:00.000-07:00

does that mean i need a beret?

The Key

2010-03-03T21:40:00.000-08:00

I'm wearing a cardigan the same colour as your car.
It reminds me of how you pushed me out,
and forever locked the door.

Babi

2010-02-27T11:18:00.000-08:00

Whenever I look out at The Ocean i will forever think of You.

One day you'll have to ask yourself...

2010-02-04T06:51:00.000-08:00

Are you crying because you're alone? Or are you alone because you're crying?

Because having a personality...

2010-02-02T11:01:00.000-08:00

isn't the same as having a personality disorder.

2010-01-31T08:35:00.000-08:00

highartlowlife.

Ideas.

2010-01-28T05:33:00.001-08:00

Funny things aren't they?

2010-01-19T22:43:00.000-08:00

I won't wait till i'm older.
till i live in france.
till i've saved enough money.
till you tell me it's alright.

i'll do it today.
because tomorrow might be too late.

2010-01-14T12:43:00.000-08:00

with you i am paris and poetry and perfumed letters written in fountain pen.
with you i am wrapped up in blankets and spread out on sheets.
with you i am car rides in country sides and cherries on stalks.
with you i am romance and the things we forget.

Too hot for clothes.

2010-01-13T11:35:00.000-08:00

You know what they say.

2010-01-12T11:26:00.000-08:00

I used to think you were interesting

2010-01-08T05:42:00.000-08:00

Until i found out you were just like the rest of them

2009-12-21T12:33:00.000-08:00

The ignorance of memory.

2009-12-10T04:40:00.001-08:00

You only remember the good things.

2009-12-10T04:39:00.000-08:00

I wrote You a letter, then threw it away.
Afraid of the things I wanted to say.

2009-12-04T00:49:00.000-08:00

I have that feeling. the one that sneaks up on me as soon as i forget what it felt like the last time. My head feels cloudy, my thoughts are irrational, my chest is tight. I feel like screaming. Or crawling into bed. I feel like blaming everyone else for everything. I feel like closing my eyes till the feeling passes.And i know it will pass. It always does. But for now, normal seems an eternity away.

2009-12-03T13:04:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i just feel small.

2009-11-22T12:53:00.001-08:00

Sometimes the only thing left to do is jump.

Happy hour.

2009-11-15T11:49:00.000-08:00

Miserable morning.

2009-11-09T10:45:00.000-08:00

2009-11-01T07:30:00.000-08:00

every family has one.

little fish.

2009-11-01T03:10:00.001-08:00

big pOnd.

Sally.

2009-10-22T14:13:00.000-07:00

2009-10-18T08:52:00.000-07:00

and the rest of the world fades to black.

2009-10-12T13:11:00.000-07:00

deadpan.

Broccoli vs. Cupcake

2009-10-04T05:34:00.000-07:00

diet starts tomorrow.

2009-09-20T11:18:00.000-07:00

i was going to say we should just forget the whole thing. But then i remembered you have something that belongs to me.

A matter of time

2009-09-16T10:34:00.000-07:00

I think Mr Dali was just feeling a little rushed.

Morning After

2009-09-13T11:35:00.000-07:00

Last night i danced on a table. Today i hid under a duvet.

2009-09-02T13:21:00.000-07:00

2009-08-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

the time has come. to do the thing. that scares you the most.

the sunny season.

2009-08-24T12:54:00.001-07:00

In summer, i plan to run around with a watermelon on my head. and no pants.

2009-08-21T03:51:00.000-07:00

sorry i couldn't post last night. i was too busy dressing up as Clara Bow.

me vs. life itself

2009-08-19T02:01:00.000-07:00

It seems to be the law of the universe that for every relationship that takes a turn for the better, there is another in my life that takes a turn for the worse. I'd try to fix this, but everyone knows it's pretty stupid to try take on the universe.

2009-08-17T13:04:00.000-07:00

sometimes i like to put on red lipstick and pretend i come from france.

An exercise.

2009-08-12T12:54:00.000-07:00

Think of something weird. And then add a party hat.

Letting go.

2009-08-11T13:48:00.000-07:00

Sometimes all you need is a good dance to make you feel like yourself again.

Promises

2009-08-11T00:07:00.000-07:00

Tonight i will go home. Have dinner with my parents. And draw a pretty picture on the computer machine for you to have a look at tomorrow.

2009-08-06T14:03:00.000-07:00

A short explanation.

2009-08-03T23:49:00.000-07:00

I, erm, "painted" a post last night. Forgot about it. And only remembered it when I was already in bed. I thought about getting up. Switching on the computer. Getting distracted by Facebook. But in the end, I chose sleep.

New job =

2009-08-02T13:07:00.000-07:00

Wardrobe worries.

2009-08-02T13:04:00.000-07:00

Hello. Again. Sorry I haven't posted (just incase you were looking). I was away from a computer screen. Doing things like writing on actual paper with an actual pen. And other things too. Like keeping bees. But now i'm back. See you soon!

2009-07-22T13:52:00.000-07:00

Family Album.

2009-07-20T00:43:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was special. And special days don't come round often. So to the 3 most important people in my life; thank you.

Dreams.

2009-07-18T15:07:00.000-07:00

Let's pretend we're on a beach somewhere.

Monkey Wishes

2009-07-16T02:44:00.000-07:00

no pictures, just a few words for a boy who's turning 21. have a day filled with all the happiness you deserve.

Keeping the Peace

2009-07-12T13:41:00.000-07:00

20 to 21.

2009-07-09T12:34:00.000-07:00

2009-07-02T12:03:00.000-07:00

The Science of Things.

2009-06-30T10:06:00.001-07:00

In a strange turn of events, the more time that passes the more difficult it seems to be.

Booooooom.

2009-06-28T13:21:00.000-07:00

It's always unfortunate when one's head feels like this.

2009-06-26T00:33:00.001-07:00

Today is a good day I think. It started off as a bad day. But then, i started to feel light inside. Maybe it's the sunshine, but it could be the Nurofen.

So, walking to work was fun today.

2009-06-24T13:45:00.000-07:00

the worst written post of all.

2009-06-24T05:33:00.000-07:00

i was going to write this deep post about needing something to change. i thought about using mechanical metaphors, cogs and wheels turning... that kind of thing. then i realised i'd probably come across as a someone trying to be meaningful. so i wrote this post instead. with no metaphors or fancy language tricks. sorry.

Shiver Shiver Shake

2009-06-22T14:44:00.000-07:00

The things we hide.

2009-06-17T12:42:00.000-07:00

So I slapped on a smile and felt like a failure.

2009-06-16T05:28:00.000-07:00

Just so you know, I'm disappointed too.

Bedtime Story

2009-06-15T00:29:00.001-07:00

Last night I read until the character's problems became bigger than my own.

You're not fooling anyone.

2009-06-10T10:57:00.000-07:00

2009-06-07T11:54:00.000-07:00

2009-06-03T12:19:00.000-07:00

Because sometimes believing in someone else, reminds you to believe in yourself.

Whoops!

2009-06-01T13:14:00.000-07:00

2009-05-25T12:03:00.001-07:00

2009-05-24T11:45:00.000-07:00

Small Victories:

2009-05-24T11:29:00.000-07:00

2009-05-18T12:08:00.000-07:00

2009-05-17T11:01:00.000-07:00

It's not what you think.

2009-05-11T13:57:00.000-07:00

THe sleepiest of eyes

2009-05-10T16:11:00.000-07:00

When they start to shut, I let you in.

2009-05-09T14:25:00.000-07:00

Dance, Dance, Dance.

2009-05-07T14:20:00.000-07:00

A small tribute to the whistler of tunes, the provider of doughnuts and an all-round helpful guy.

Close your eyes and read this.

2009-05-06T23:58:00.000-07:00

I didn't have time to paint you a picture, or sing you a song. So I wrote you this note to help you along.

STOP THE ALARMS

2009-05-05T13:52:00.000-07:00

before they drive me crazy

2009-05-03T13:24:00.000-07:00

Puddle-esque

2009-05-01T05:09:00.000-07:00

Good girls don't Swing

2009-04-29T12:42:00.001-07:00

2009-04-27T08:35:00.000-07:00